The Angel of our TEARS
On the 19th feburary 2006 our beautiful angel emily jade connelly was born still at 38wks 4days. Emily was the most beautiful girl a mother & father could ever hope for she was perfect in every way at 6p9oz ten long fingers and ten tiny toes.Emily had her daddy's dimple in her chin and the most blackest hair and big feet with tiny toes.Emily was a baby sister for 3 big brothers and 1 very proud big sister.Loved granddaughter to her nanny and poppy daley . Much loved neice to her uncles.Emily even tho we never got to bring you home angel girl we are always with you and you will always be in our hearts not a day goes by that we don't think about our beautiful Emily we love and miss you so much our precious angel girl love always daddy,mummy, joshua, dakota, brayden and sissy jamie-lee love you baby girl.May you fly high with all your angel friends.Also a very special thankyou to a very dear friend kayleen your help,love,support and true kindness in our time of heartache could never be repaid and words could never say what mark and l and the kids feel thankyou kayleen may emily smile over you and your family love always from us all you are a true friend to us.
PLEASE IF YOU ARE PASSING IN THIS SITE PLEASE LIGHT A CANDLE FOR EMILY JADE (M.J.)
WHAT WOULD I SAY.
YES IT IS TRUE THAT I NEVER GOT TO SEE ALL THAT THIS WORLD HOLDS.
THE FLOWERS,TREES,GRASS OR A BRIGHT SUNNY DAY.
NOT EVEN THE SMILING FACES OF MY LOVING FAMILY.
BUT IN MY HEART I HAVE SEEN ALL THESE THINGS,EVEN IN MY SHORT TIME,
IT IS ALSO TRUE THAT I NEVER GOT TO FEEL THE MANY THINGS THAT YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED.
THE SNOW ON MY FACE ON A COLD WINTERS DAY
FINGER PAINTING AND CRAYONS I WILL NEVER HOLD IN MY HANDS
BUT I DID FEEL THE LOVING ARMS OF MY MOTHER AND FATHER CRADLING ME GENTLY.
I NEVER GOT TO HEAR ALL THE SOUNDS THAT MAKE MOST HEARTS SING
THE LAUGHTER OF A LOVED ONE OR THE SWEET SONG OF A BIRD
SONGS ON THE RADIO AND THE WORDS "I LOVE YOU" ARE TO ME A MYSTERY
BUT THE SOFT TOUCH OF MY MOTHER'S HANDS SHOUTS TO ME ALL OF THIS AND MORE.
I WOULD NEVER HAVE KNOWN THE JOY OF RUNNING THROUGH A FIELD OF FLOWERS
NEVER WOULD I ROLL DOWN THE SIDE OF A HILL TOO DIZZY TO STAND
HIDE AND SEEK, TAG AND DODGE BALL I WOULD HAVE MISSED.
IN MY MIND I WILL DO ALL THOSE THINGS AND MORE.
YOU ALL MAY SEE IT AS ME MISSING OUT ON ALL
THESE THINGS BY LEAVING YOU SO SOON
BUT WHERE I AM GOING I WILL DO, SEE AND HEAR EVERYTHING YOU DO AND MORE
ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT HAVE PASSED BEFORE ME ARE WAITING TO MAKE THAT COME TRUE
I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF GOOD THINGS, FOR MY SHORT TIME THAT IS ALL THAT I KNOW
SO DON'T CRY FOR ME
I AM DOING ALL THAT YOU HAVE ALL WISHED FOR ME,
AND FROM MY SHORT TIME HERE WITH YOU
I WILL KNOW NOTHING BUT LOVE AND THAT I WILL TAKE WITH ME.
IN LOVING MEMORY
19/02/2006 BORN AN ANGEL
Time spent with you was so very precious
even if only for a very short time
I hold a special memory
close inside this heart of mine
to me you were so very special
much more than words can say
l will love you for ever emily
l will remember you every day.
As we go through
each day of our life
somehow thoughts of you
spring to mind
Too precious, never to be forgotten
Because you were
The rare and special kind.
UP IN HEAVEN THERE'S AN ANGEL
A SPECIAL FORGET-ME-NOT
SHE'S THE BELOVED LITTLE ANGEL
WHO'S FOREVER IN OUR HEART.
What Makes A Mother
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom
My precious little baby
I have loved you from the start
You are a tiny miracle
Laying closely to my heart
Each day I feel your presence
Each day you quickly grow
Each day your heart beats softly
As only I could know
So I'll keep this in a special place
And remember each year through
Of this very special time of life
The months I carried you.
Please See Me Through My Tears
You asked, "How are you doing?"
As I told you, tears came to my eyes...and you
looked away and quickly began to talk again.
All the attention you had given me had drained away.
"How am I doing?" I do better when people listen, though I may shed a tear or two.
This pain is indescribable.
If you've never known it, you
cannot fully understand.
Yet I need you.
When you look away,
I am again alone with it.
Your attention means more than you can ever know.
Really, tears are not a bad sign, you know!
They're nature's way of helping me to heal.
They relieve some of the stress of sadness
....but you are wrong.
The memory of my loved one's death will always be with me,
Only a thought away.
My tears make my pain more visible to you, but you did not
give me the pain...it was already there.
When I cry, could it be that you feel helpless,
Not knowing what to do?
You are not helpless,
And you don't need to do a thing but be there.
When I feel your permission to allow my tears to flow,
you've helped me
You need not speak. Your silence as I cry is all I need.
Be patient...do not fear.
Listening with your heart to "how I am doing" relieves the pain
for when the tears can freely come and go, I feel lighter.
Talking to you releases what I've wanted to say aloud,
for a touch of joy in my life.
I'll cry for a minute or two... and then I'll wipe my eyes
and sometimes you'll even find I'm laughing later.
When I hold back the tears, my throat grows tight,
my chest aches, my stomach knots...
because I'm trying to protect YOU from my tears.
Then we both hurt ME, because my pain is held inside,
a shield against our closeness and YOU,
because suddenly we are distant.
So please, take my hand and see me through my tears...
then we can be close again.
A gift for you on Fathers Day,
What on earth could it be?
I know the gift you really want,
Is to once again, have me.
Or perhaps the gift of understanding,
To make sense of a senseless loss.
I'm sorry, my dearest Daddy,
But for those gifts, you must talk to the boss.
The gifts that I can give today,
Are memories, both sad and sweet.
From the touch of your hand on Mummy's tummy,
To my tiny little feet.
Remember the joy you felt inside,
When you found out you would be my Daddy?
The great big smiles upon your face,
You were over the moon, you were so happy.
Remember when you felt me move,
The wonder and love you'd feel?
Remember it today Daddy,
It just might help you heal.
Remember the little cuddles we had,
And the moments that we shared.
Remember my little nose,
And the colour of my hair,
I love you dearest Daddy, you know that this is true.
Just keep your memories of me alive,
And I will always live in you.
A Father's Love
I remember when you were born;
a father's joy turned to sorrow.
There was no one to smoke cigars or wet your tiny head,
no pats on the back, no 'Good on ya mate',
Just emptiness and despair.
You worry about your wife and the way that she feels
You start to hide emotions as if it isn't real.
You bottle up your feelings
Because you think that men can't cry
while all the time the hurt is tearing you up inside.
When you're back at work it's always, 'How's the wife?'
You can't tell your mates the pain cuts you like a knife.
So you learn to suffer in private, don't want to show that you can't cope
with the fact that your child's life was taken away
and you have lost all hope.
You dream of what would have been,
of playing cricket, or football
Of checking out the daughter's boyfriends
and walking her down the aisle.
It all hurts so much; but all you can do is smile
There's a special Angel in Heaven
That is a part of me
It's not where I wanted her
But where God wanted her to be
She was here just a moment
Like a night time shooting star
And though she is in Heaven
She isn't very far
She touched the hearts of many
Like only an Angel can do
I would have held her every moment
If the end I only knew
So I send this special message
To heaven up above
Please God take care of my Angel
and send her all my love
It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry"And "men are strong"
No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
And field calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right
And what she's going through
But seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break
And dries her tears and comforts her
But "stays strong" for her sake.
YOUR FIRST CHRISTMAS
ONE YEAR TODAY OUR
HEARTS WHERE BROKEN
WHERE DID YOU GO MY PRECIOUS ONE,WHY DID YOU LEAVE SO SOON?
I THOUGHT I TOOK GREAT CARE OF YOU WHILST YOU GREW IN MY WOMB.
I TRIED TO BE CAREFUL, I WANTED YOU SO MUCH.
TO WATCH MY TUMMY GROW AND GROW THEN FINALLY FEEL YOUR TOUCH.
TO SMELL YOUR NEWBORN BABY SCENT AND HOLD YOUR TINY HAND.
TO ROCK YOU TIGHTLY IN MY ARMS AND TELL YOU ALL I'D PLANNED.
THERE WAS SO MUCH WE HAD TO DO, MUCH LOVE I HAD TO GIVE
I'M SURE THAT YOU'D HAVE LOVED ME TO IF ONLY YOU HAD LIVED.
OH PRECIOUS ONE,NOW YOU'RE NOT HERE, HOW CAN I CARRY ON?
WHEN WILL THE DARKNESS FADE AWAY, WHEN WILL I SEE THE SUN
MY PRECIOUS LITTLE BABY,MUMMY'S PRECIOUS LITTLE ONE!
PLEASE LIGHT A CANDLE SO WE KNOW U HAVE BEEN
EMILY JADE IS A BIG SISTER
PROUD TO HAVE AN ANGEL SISTER
A Lost Child, A Mother's Prayer
Lord, the child you formed within my womb,
was taken suddenly from me...
and all that's left is emptiness
and questions running free.
I would've been a good mother,
I would've loved this child so much...
I would have given all I have
for her precious tender touch.
I pray for strength and wisdom,
as I face these trying days...
Lord, help me understand the truth,
and trust in all your ways.
I may not know the reason
my child is not with me...
but I know She's safe in heaven,
with you, for eternity.
Please tell my child I love her,
and I'll see her in the sky...
I'll hold her close forever,
and sing her lullabies.
No more tears or hardship,
no more pain to bear...
face to face I'll see her;
just tell her I'll be there.
As a butterfly graces our lives with one moments fragile beauty so too has your baby's presence blessed you, and those around you.
May you find peace and joy with each butterfly that passes by,knowing that your baby lives on in the hearts of all she touched
Mommy I am in Heaven so please don't shed your tears
I can see I know you are my mother and none other would I have chose
For even up here in Heaven true love continues to grow.
Daddy I see that sometimes when you are all alone
your eyes get kind of misty and your thoughts they kind of roam
You are thinking of how things would be if I was there with you
all the things you would have taught me and watched me as I grew.
But I still love you my dear parents as if I was there on earth
I remember how you longed for me and looked forward to my birth.
There was nothing you did wrong so please put your minds at rest,
God just wanted to keep me and you know He picks the best.
And one day we will all be together in our castle in the sky
true peace and love and happiness, things money cannot buy
And you can hold your angel and sing me a lullaby
for a parent's love for their children is a love that will never die.you and I love you even after all these years
She was so very, very special
And was so from the start
You held her in your arms
But mainly in your heart
And like a single drop of rain
That on still waters fall,
Her life did ripples make
And touched the lives of all.
She's gone to play with angels
In heaven up above
So keep your special memories
And treasure. them with love
Although your darling daughter,
Was with you just a while
(She'll) live on in your heart
With a sweet remembered smile
A million times we've needed you
A million times we have cried,
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.
In Life we loved you dearly
in death we love you still,
For in our hearts you hold
A place no one could ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you.
But you did not go alone,
For a part of us went with you
the day God took you home.
YOUR SPIRIT WAS BROUGHT TO US
FROM A WISH MADE OF LOVE.
WE COULDN'T BELIEVE IT WHEN WE
REALIZED WE'DBEEN BLESSEDFROM ABOVE.
IN MY WOMB YOU WERE GROWING SLOWLY
I FOUND PEACE KNOWING YOU WERE THERE.
THEN CAME THE TEARS OF LOSS AND I WANTED
TO KNOW HOW LIFE COULD BE SO UNFAIR.
I HAD TO REALIZE THAT BECAUSE YOU WERE SO SPECIAL, GOD NEEDED YOU MORE THAN I.
IT HELPS ME WHEN I FEEL HIS LOVING
HANDS WIPE AWAY MY TEARS AS I CRY.
I KNOW THAT SOMEDAY WE'LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, BUT FOR NOW I'LL KEEP YOU IN MY HEART
KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY
AND THAT GOD WILL PROTECT YOU WHILE WE'RE APART
WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH EMILY,
DADDY, MUMMY, JOSHUA, JAMIE-LEE, DAKOTA, BRAYDEN. YOUR LOVING FAMILY XXX0X00X00X0X
Angels are forever
We were chosen to become the family of a very special child.
Who would come to earth from Heaven and visit for a while.
There are mothers who give birth to babies, too good for this world of men.
They touch our lives for a moment, then travel Home again.
This was to become our destiny. And, Why? We need not know.
For a parents greatest gift is to nurture and love a child with a perfect soul.
Our baby was born an Angel and stopped to pause this way,
Blessing us with sunshine, as we thanked the Lord each day.
Our child was like a ray of perfection and could not journey long,
The source of power being God Himself, quietly called our Angel Home.
As we walk in Springtime meadows, with nature posing all around,
We see the beauty of our little one in every sight and sound.
Whenever I gaze at this beautiful world, or look at a blue sky above,
I know that Angels are Forever
Warming our hearts with their light and love.